Actually I really did need some wine, fine or not (this was not fine wine it was a 2003 Cardinal Zin zinfandel that had been open for at least 5 days) because it had been a long. Ass. Week. (haha ass week) and everything kind of got done last night so YAY ME. So anyway, VV was watching hockey so I went outside and played with my camera which I haven't done in what seems like forever but really it'd only been maybe a week or so.

You know, there's been all this crap floating around my head that I can't bring myself to jot down for some reason or another. Mostly because it's either a) opinionated or b) personal. Which is stupid. I used to have no issue with blogging stuff like that. And it's not like the personal stuff is too personal, I mean I have boundaries and all but it's not like they're all-encompassing. I think I've been reading way too many of the "popular" blogs...and their comments. People on the internets (esp "Anonymous") are total fuckers and so many of them seem to think that bloggers should be catering to them and for whatever reason these assholes freak me out.

THIS IS DUMB. WHY AM I EVEN THINKING ABOUT THIS WHEN DID THIS STOP BEING MY BLOG.

I'm a human being with feelings, opinions, emotions. I'm insecure and overly anxious. I stress out easily. I'm afraid of most people. I have emotional slumps that can last for weeks. I'm also quirky, genuine, and occasionally funny. This blog is an outlet and a record for myself. If you're entertained by it, that's great! Glad to be of service. If anything I write speaks to you, inspires you, or is relatable, even better--and even better if you let me know.

In short, here's my disclaimer: I'm going to post whatever the hell I want. So watch out.

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Today: VV picked up euros at the bank.

I am so not ready for the trip. Must start stressing about packing right about now. I used to make incredibly detailed packing lists when I was a teenager and consequently never forgot anything. Unfortunately, this has changed!

I'm probably going to give myself a heart attack trying to pack 13 days worth of stuff. Which would be a shame because then I wouldn't be able to go on the cruise.

Have a good weekend everyone!