One more...
This thing is becoming a ridiculously public outlet for my everything. Anyway...
I think I know why they say you need to love yourself before you love someone else. It sounds so ridiculously cheesy and cliché but it's so true. Maybe that's where the big problems started. A lot of the time I didn't think that I deserved to be happy and sometimes I still don't think I do. And sometimes I really feel like it's just not going to happen for me. And right now I really don't know.
Things will work out how they work out and I'll just have to deal with it.
*hahahah sar i can't believe you're the only one who commented on that...