I feel kind of numb right now. I look like shit because I was crying a little last night and I'm puffy. Plus I didn't get much sleep.

I want you to know that I still care a lot about you and it kills me to know that you're hurting so much. That wasn't my intention. I want you in my life but I understand if you can't see me right now. I've learned a lot from you over the past two and a half years and I don't regret it at all. It was time well spent.

And to those who have been backing me and supporting me all this time, you have no idea what it means to me. My roommates were incredible last night and so were all the people that I was drunkenly talking to on the phone (sorry about that...) And I'm really, really sorry about all of the drunk instant messages...I probably shouldn't have done that. I think I messaged someone I don't even know which is just GREAT.

Yesterday = worst day EVER. And now I'm hung over. Let the healing process begin.