I'm so stressed out. I really feel like I've brushed aside a lot of people in my life, but this time I really don't feel like I can really help it...I mean this has got to be the first quarter I've been truly worried about failing a class, and mos def the only quarter I've been in any danger of failing one of the classes required for my major. If I don't pass Math 6C I'm going to have one helluva time trying to find classes to take next quarter =\.

I'm envious of people like Styna and H who somehow managed to get everything done...and done early. I mean, Styna is walking next year and H, a fellow ICS major, is going to be done a quarter early.

I'm struggling.

I've come to some sort of realization that I'm really not all that special. Well, maybe I'm special in that I'm unusually short or...unusually white (that's not even a good kind of special =\) but I don't stand out here. Somehow I don't think I'll ever stand out no matter what I do. I think I'm fated to blend in and/or be overlooked =\

This whole year has felt gray.

Have you ever had bad years?

This is a bad year. My worst two quarters of college yet. My grandmother died (=(), my mom's uncle died (it was so sad watching her aunt, his wife, at the funeral...she was so small and sad =() I'd run into some pretty nasty financial trouble a couple months back.

I had the feeling it'd be a bad year. On new years eve I got into a fight with the bf, found out my grandmother was dying, and hit that car =\ Blah.

(I did have fun at Sar's with Leah, Oishiri, and Apes the following morning =))

Overall this year has been suckage in a drainpipe.

I just need something to go terribly right.