I've been contemplating the way my life has been going these past few months. A lot has changed, I've become closer to some, further from others. I have a boyfriend now. School is getting more difficult. We're no longer in the dorms. A lot of my friends are now scattered all over California for the better part of the year. It's more difficult to keep contact. I cease to be amazed by those who still support me and still care about me even if I've been flaky about keeping touch (which has been a fault of mine ever since I could remember). I thank those people. I probably don't deserve them, but I have them anyway. I'm lucky. And I'm sorry if I haven't been there as much as I could/should. I can't help feeling that my life is just a huge mess right now, not because anything has gone wrong per se, but because I can't seem to keep track of it and my priorities.

But I'm not alone now, am I?